hihi (: w5 & 6 has been great. filled with all the joy & happy moments from cny!
im done and over with academic studies & failed my TP. (hao xin tong.. xin tong the amt i paid) what's my next step? uni? noooo.. :{ im lost

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idk why tht very day, your sudden appearance seemed to trigger and pulled my entire world down. its funny how it felt, someone who used to be so close with suddenly feels so distance. i dont blame anything or what 'cus afterall we did led continue with our individual path and were happy. i kinda want to attempt to do something, but on second thoughts i gave up, its stupid and its gonna ruin everything 'cus afterall its been so long, like 6-7 years. idk if its gona be awkward blogging this out either 'cus idk if you are reading this, i hope you don't. cus its funny seriously, idk how to explain. was it the reason that u're going away that made me feel so lost?or was it knowing that you are moving on to the next chapter in life that made me feel so lost? i couldnt help but kept thinking and had you running through my mind.

til this one fine day, i decides to dig out those memories. i opened that drawer. i saw that necklace you gave me, the handphone strap i made and that 'letter'. its not a 'letter' its sms thread. a thread of text exchanged. (i've this habit of writting out meaningful text exchanged between people) it was clear and straight forward, struck me hard like how it used to, that night of tears and calls made between me & bestie surfaced. it all seems like yesterday. but that contents struck me hard and bought me back to reality. how different we were and thinking back how we've moved on.

' hey. ive been thinking alot lately.. and i have always wanted to get back with you. and when i had a chance, i jumped at it. only now i realised that i only wanted to do this as i could not accept our break up then. Theresa, its one of my greatest regret that i never really had a chance to be with you. but its time to move on. we have been holding onto the past for too long. i hope this will not cause awkwardness between us again. i sincerely want us to be good friends. i am truely sorry for giving you false hopes. '
-dated 2006

you never know the reason for that break up and i'll never tell, unless you ask, but you didnt. its time to pack my feelings again and keep moving & i guess that you did made sense- its just about that regret we never really lasted.

its just a fall back feeling and i doubt we'd last anyway, with the difference in characters and all. oh well, its just part and parcel of life and people like me just love to stay and not move on and totally love reminiscing.

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dk where to relate this at, but here. oppsy (: